When did I lose
Everything I had?
My precious grains of time
Held in stranger’s hands.
I sit here all alone
Just as I truly am.
My face held in my hands
As blind as I have been.

How can it be
That I’ve come back to the end?
How far must I fall
To forget where I’ve been?
I stare down at me,
My face a diatribe
And I haven’t what it takes
To put it back inside.

Why can’t I ask
To give myself up?
All of my dreams
Broken needles in my tongue.
I sit here with my tears
Dancing on my knees,
Clams upon the shore
Fed to my disease.

How can it be
That I’ve come back to the end?
How far must I fall
To forget where I’ve been?
I stare down at me,
My face a diatribe
And I haven’t what it takes
To put it back inside.

Why can’t I be myself again
And where am I ever to belong
When hollowness burns my whole
That should have been my own?
Now just meager delights,
And I can never have me back.
I’m all alone at last.
I’m all alone at last.

How can it be
That I’ve come back to the end?
How far must I fall
To forget where I’ve been?
I stare down at me,
My face a diatribe
And I haven’t what it takes
To put it back inside.