This is the first time that I questioned you.
The first time that I wouldn’t do
The lonely tasks of Punxsutawney dread.
This is the first time that I turned from you.
The first time I ignored your truce
That we could both be wrong in my stead.
Needlessly I ask me,
“Where are we heading?”
When I realize
All demons walk in droves.
This is the first time that I screamed at you.
The first time that I always knew
That this would be my first line of defense.
This is the first time that I followed you.
The first time that I heard you use
Slander to describe me to your friends.
Needlessly I ask me,
“Where are we heading?”
When I realize
All demons walk in droves.
And I don’t know
Why I stay here
In your holy subjugation.
And it’s not clear
Why I wait here
For my freedom in your nation.
And then, I realize
That my hair is growing white
And I’ve wasted all my life
Trying to change your world.
But, the flaws are all your own
As you’re smoking on the bones
Of the past you’ll never learn.
So, why am I concerned
With your world?
This is the first time that I hated you.
The first time I was always true
About my need to get out of your bed.
This is the first time I laid my hands on you.
The first time that I wanted to
Use your blood to paint my Tartar flag.
Needlessly I ask me,
“Where are we heading?”
When I realize
All demons walk in droves.
And I don’t know
Why I stay here
In your holy subjugation.
And it’s not clear
Why I wait here
For my freedom in your nation.
And then, I realize
That my hair is growing white
And I’ve wasted all my life
Trying to change your world.
But, the flaws are all your own
As you’re smoking on the bones
Of the past you’ll never learn.
So, why am I concerned
With your world?
Needlessly I ask me,
“Where are we heading?”
When I realize
All demons walk in droves.
This is the last time that I’ll hear from you.
The last time that I’ll stand with you
When I earned my right to stand alone.